Hello again.
I feel like I may have neglected this a bit since my last post a couple months ago, and that is on me. I have thought about writing more posts but didn’t really have the thoughts or energy to put behind doing it so it seemed pointless. It’s not pointless though. It should help release some of the emotion that has built up over whatever subject matter but I don’t do it enough to really see a practical effect. Oh well.
I have been thinking about how I would like a relationship again, but the one thing that kinda gets me is that I don’t have a social life… That does put a damper on things like trying to meet women. I am stuck in the part of life where I seem to not have any friends close by, but at the same time it is difficult to make friends in town because I don’t do anything. Like my usual routine is this; I go to work, I go home, and depending on the day of the week I will go to church. I am working on getting better acquainted with the people my age at the church, but it is hard since most of them have known each other almost their entire lives. So being the outsider trying to break in is hard. I like them so far though, and hopefully they like me too.
I always get a bit self-conscious when it comes to trying to make friends, or trying to cement friendships. I get all in my head about if they like me enough to hang out with one-on-one or invite me back to a group setting. I have no idea why though. I have been told several times that I am a great friend and such so I should have nothing to worry about. Yet I do. It will forever puzzle me.
Anyway. I hope to get back to typing up some more of these update style blogs. Who knows, at this rate it will be December before the next one comes. Well, until next time.